~The way it is~
Harsh light peeks out from beyond the corner where I find myself searching for escape from the great reeling pictures playing throughout my mind. i lay curled up, hugging my body tight, hoping to squeeze out the images flashing behind my eyes in painful sporadic jolts. My body flinches and shakes at the remembrance of another nightly horror.
Time swallows me and as the moments pass i come to another. As the past drains away from my sweat soaked body I raise a tear strewn face to the figure before me... Blaming and misplaced hostility, directed solely at me... Her yelling pierces right through to my soul and even though ration tells me it is not right, her words further enforce the reoccurring mantra repeating in my head. "You deserve this."
There will be no nurturing tonight. Not at Harmony Heights. Not for many years to come. That's just the way it is.